| Posted on March 13, 2010 at 10:29 AM |
Over many years of working with spirit it was inevitable that I would meet several spirits who had passed through making the choice themselves to leave. Its has been such a touchy subject for many for years and the many questions that are left for their families behind is often why they come back to help resolve those issues. Helping the family to finally understand what it was like to be them. Many lightworkers are born into destructive families (but this is not always the case) and having to work through all these issues can be torture and a long slow process for them. Leaving them scared and often isolated. In particular its harder for boys and men as they dont do feelings as they where often never showed how to express.
The key reason that many choose to take their own lives is often due to the fact that they feel they are not understood or heard or perhaps do not know how to express how they feel. They just live in deep pain. I believe that many of these souls are often lightworkers here and because of the lack of understanding of there abilities they just absorb so much sadness and anger and without the skills to filter these emotions through they become a walking time bomb.
Been lightworkers we often attract crazy situations into our lives, not always through choice. These situations only compound to deep feels of failure. The part of them that does not understand their gifts feels they have failed their task here, which is ultimately to help others but its like going into battle, you would hardly go to war with no Armour? Or with no defense skills!
Many lightworkers walk around wide open and because of this every dark part of this world seeps in, gradually dulling their light, their ability to believe in themselves or anything else.
In that space its either eerily quite or hauntingly active with horrid thoughts about themselves and the world around them. The fact is we are our environment, what we live in becomes our reality. So if you live in a noisy household or neighborhood you are absorbing all the thoughts and feelings of those around you. Its proven science that 95% of our thoughts are not our own. So for a lightworker on a destructive path absorbing all this access information which is not always good can be the deciding factor in what makes them leave here.
Going back to 2004, when I was in the early days of learning mediumship and the many aspects to it and because I learnt about spirit through spirit and without human guidance, there came a week and weeks when I began to have very low thoughts and saw often in my mind me hanging myself. I would pray religiously to have them removed but it came to a point where all my thoughts where filled with a song called yellow and it played like a broken record for months before and after. Then I began to see more and feel very drawn to Sligo and the name Barry (name has been changed) I was still inexperienced and I have to say it was a tough time for me. Within approx 2 weeks of all this starting, a young girl from the Sligo area got in touch. She needed a reading. When she came to see me the song cranked up and I could see once more this image of suicide but it was not me this time, it was a lad named Barry. The reading was so accurate and he came through so strong. She got comfort in the messages he relayed. Barry stayed around for quite sometime after that and with each conversation we had he showed me his life and how all his life he never felt accepted. He showed me everything from his birth right up to his passing. This took many months and many times of me listening to Yellow. It nearly drove me mad lol but at least I now knew it was his song and he was with me. He in turn listened to me and worked with Archangel Michael to help him let go and move on. There came a day when there was peace for both of us but through it all I learnt so much about the effects of how our thoughts are not always are own. Been aware of our thinking and learning to ask for any negativity to be healed and released in this simple manner can aid us in learning to identify the real issues within us and not be defined by our envoirnement.
I shuddered just now as I can sense Barry is once more here all these years later telling me he is happy and well and his mom now has found solace in the messages he gave to her through this girl. It took many years for her to even except he was gone. How confusing it must be for family members who are left behind. Barry learnt that just because you walk away from all that is here does not mean you wont have the same feelings in spirit. You still will have to process your life and work through what it was that held you back from been the best you could be.
I guess my point in writing this is, God created you for a purpose, your life here is a Gift, you are a gift with many gifts. If you have feelings that you no longer wish to be a part of this world, then please for a moment consider what your leaving behind. If you could be shown away to help you live in inner peace, would you take it? If the Angels could teach you how to destroy all those thoughts and teach you how to recognize the difference between whats real for you, would you wish to learn. The techniques are simple. There not rocket science. You dont even need to believe for them to work. You require no faith just a tiny bit of willingness to try something better.
If you are feeling suicidal or have had suicidal thoughts you have options.
1. You can go ahead and honour those feelings and leave behind the possibility of that amazing life you want
2. You can pick up the phone and talk to an organisation that cares
3. You could speak to someone you trust
4. You could learn how to ask for help from Angels (they helped me and many others)
I am putting together a pack to help you learn how to deal with whats happened in your life to bring you to this place and these feelings you now experience. This pack is blessed by Archangel Michael and through him you can learn how to take charge of your life, learn how to seperate your thoughts from those belonging to others and begin to recognise the signs that something in your life needs attention. You will be given the tools to have the confidence in your ability. Self help is the key to success. You already earnt the rights to be successful the day you where born. Now all you need to see is that you are not alone, you have the company of Angels to guide you and nurture you. Sounds crazy lol but no more crazy then wanting to destroy the precious gift you are. Today embrace the love your angels and I are sending you right now. We love you, we need you and we desire you to be happy. If you can do nothing else today but feel this in your heart then you have achieved so much more than you realize. You are a success in our eyes.
Today be the success you where born to be and learn to recognize you can never fail in life. Life is a journey not a destination. As Aeromsmith once said you must learn to crawl before you learn to walk.
